My lost little one

As i sat here and reminiscing of my lost lil one
I think of what u would have been like,
Would u have looked like me?
Would u have fit the family?
I think abt u and wonder my darling,
I wish i could have met you, if only held u once,
I know u had to be taken away,
to be at home where i too will be one day.
Ur life was nvr meant to be.
U were given a life, a soul, a future name
But now things will nvr be the same.
U were mine to give life to
Though only for a while
Things had changed...
I will nvr see your smile.
Yet my love for u
Will nvr disappear
Though ur voice,ur laugh,
I will nvr get to hear.
U will always be my baby
Though i've never seen ur face.
Not a thing in this world
Can ever take your place.
I know my lost lil one that you are gone,
gone but not 4ever.
In my heart i know that one day we will be there together,
And i will nvr let you go,
No one will hurt u, my lost lil one,
I fought for u, please believe me i did
I was too little too late to decide,
I wanted you from the start but i was unsure abt ur mom's decision
I fought to save u, but she was just too strong,
I want u to know i love u, and to know i am sorry,
for making u go, the way u did,
U will never be forgotten
When I realized I'd nvr hold u,
The feeling i had was numbing.
My angel baby is who u are.
My angel baby you'll always be.
Ur loving memory will live in my heart
So u will always be right here with me.
I wish i could do it again, i would have been gone,
gone away with you,
I would do anything for u, u are my child,
my shining star, my life
I know my words cant change the past,
but i can change the future,
My lost lil one,
it will never happen to your brothers or sisters,
I will protect them to the death,
I will not let them go too,
I had to lose you, that was hard enough to do.
You are my dearest one and believe me i'll remember you,
I love you my kid, my little baby,
I miss you and ur mommy...Daddy loves you kid...