Wednesday, August 29, 2012

You Can't Have A Rainbow Without A Little Rain

Some people are just too afraid of getting hurt when it comes to love. They just tend to ignore this kind of stuff because they are just too scared to face the reality of falling in love. Maybe they’ve been hurt in the past and have a strong fear that this will happen again. The problem is — even if you hide your feelings just because you have that fear of hurting, you end up hurting anyway because you didn’t try. There is always that regret you feel once you miss out on the opportunity of actually falling in love with the right person because you just let them go. It’s better to just try it, if you think it’s the right thing to do. Don’t let fear control you, because it’s fear that is stopping you from doing the things that you might just want to do. Facing your fears would make you stronger and a better person than you are today. If you don’t want to get hurt, then you are a coward in any situation that you think that might end up hurting you. Everyone gets hurt sometimes even surprisingly. Its normal to get hurt but hurting can actually make you stronger. It can also help you face the reality of falling in love in an amazing but hurtful way. It’s a fact that falling in love might end up hurting you but that’s not a reason to give up on someone just because you are too afraid to feel the pain. Life is an adventure and you have to explore life in order for you to experience the reality. So don’t hold back your feeling especially to the one you like or love. It’s much better to try and get hurt than to actually avoid trying and feel regret. Because in this way at least you know you tried and you don’t have to wonder what life would have been like if you didn’t. All the way through your life there will be decisions to be made. But dwelling on the “what ifs” becomes a form of mind torture and keep you trapped in the past. Because you can’t help wondering what if you had just tried it? What could have happened? Would I actually feel happiness? So if you feel it’s right, then just grab the opportunity. “Seize the Day” and tell them how you feel. It may surprise you how they respond. In the end, no matter the outcome, you can’t get it wrong. If their response is “wow! I feel the same” then you are on the way to discovering a new relationship. And if their response is “no thanks” then you have gained from the experience and are one step closer to finding “the perfect one of your dreams”. Even though you may get hurt in the process, falling in love always takes you to another richer experience.

Thursday, August 23, 2012

Funny

Dear Blog, it has been sometime the last i update you. So here goes. So much funny things happened lately. I met this girl whom my love now but the funny thing is that, every time i think back how i treated Eileen, it is the other way round now. I'm exactly in Eileen's position now. Treating so good and nice to my current gf. Reminds me a lot of how Eileen said she wants a gentleman, financially stable, caring and loving. Because of my past experience with Eileen, now i appreciate so much of women, being grateful of what i have even sometimes my current gf would made me feel suspicious or hurt me. In any relationship, there will always be one sided. When one cares, the other take things for granted. Guess i'm in the took for granted shoe. I took Eileen for granted and now it is my own turn. That's how karma works no doubt but that never even make me back down or giving up. Instead it drives me forward. To be better man and shows her that i'm someone worth. Someone who can be a husband and dad. Took down my ego and pride. I'm so very happy that i don't even get mad or scold my current gf. I managed to hold back and control my temper and think positively. That's the key. I got all lovey dovey with her but she is just like how i used to be, doesn't like it. She even asked me not to care for her too much because she's scared that we will ended up like her ex'es though her ex'es treated her bad but not me. How funny that she said im a gentleman. Even her whole family is backing me up even when things go wrong with both of us. Responsibilities is the keyword. Responsibilities creates love. Responsibilities creates the security in a woman. Nowadays, whenever i made mistakes, i will quickly apologize and sometimes when even it is not my fault, i still apologize. Why? Because i vale the relationship more than my own ego. Let alone people who will tell me stupid saying that im losing myself for the one i love and care about. I know in every person will have a limit but let me tell you my limit is even higher up since the last i was with Eileen. It is ten folds now. Other funny things, im mixing around with a group of Ipohrian. They know Eileen because one of their friend is her ex bf. How funny it is that i still talk about Eileen with this group. Not bad stuff but good things about her. These people talked bad about her when she was with Bryan and it is funny that how i backed her up in front of these guys even though she is no longer with me. I kept asking myself why i did that but i just got one answer, because to me she is not bad after all and she must have got her own reasons behind all those happened. I kept pushing myself forward. To love her more and more everyday and that's what i've been doing. Care for her so much until she told me i suffocate her. Sigh...now when i think back, how i am like this towards Eileen. Things would have been different. I prolly would have gotten married to her and have kids of our own. Told ya this is all funny. Funny how life works. One time we are in the loosing side and one time we are in the winning side.