Thanks to those who hated me,they made me a stronger person.
Thanks to those who loved me,they made my heart bigger.
Thanks to those who worried about me,they let me know that they actually cared.
Thanks to those who left me,they made me realize that nothing lasts forever.
Thanks to those who entered my life,they made me who i am today.
Just want to Thank You to all of you for being there in my life whatever i might have meant to you
Friday, December 31, 2010
Akan Ku Menunggu Mu
Akan ku menunggu kamu di situ,
Akan ku tunggu mu seorang di bawah panas hujan,
Akan ku menunggu kamu di situ,
sampai kamu muncul,sampai kau muncul.
Akan ku menunggu,sepanjang umur ku..
Akan ku genggam tangan mu,
Akan ku peluk jasad hati mu..
Akan ku tunggu di situ,
Akan ku menunggu kehadiran mu,
Tanpa mu ku akan terasa pilu
Masih lagi kau mengingatkan kehadiran mu,di dalam hidup ku yang satu,sepanjang zaman ku yang di tuju,
Akan ku julangkan peninggalan mu,yang tinggal kau kesorangan,
Akan ku hadir di situ
Ohh...akan ku menunggu mu...biarkan ku selalu menemani mu..oh..menemani mu..
Akan ku oh menunggu
Akan ku tunggu mu seorang di bawah panas hujan,
Akan ku menunggu kamu di situ,
sampai kamu muncul,sampai kau muncul.
Akan ku menunggu,sepanjang umur ku..
Akan ku genggam tangan mu,
Akan ku peluk jasad hati mu..
Akan ku tunggu di situ,
Akan ku menunggu kehadiran mu,
Tanpa mu ku akan terasa pilu
Masih lagi kau mengingatkan kehadiran mu,di dalam hidup ku yang satu,sepanjang zaman ku yang di tuju,
Akan ku julangkan peninggalan mu,yang tinggal kau kesorangan,
Akan ku hadir di situ
Ohh...akan ku menunggu mu...biarkan ku selalu menemani mu..oh..menemani mu..
Akan ku oh menunggu
2010 for Nezyrin
1:Work career going up and up
2: Getting in a relationship
3: Broken in a relationship...
4: Proposed to my fiancee
5:Almost had a baby which i miss the most.I knew with him/her,i would have been better.
6: Had a great runaway trip with Eileen.First time i brought my lady out of the country.
7:Had my White Xmas.Literally white snow.
8:changed my hairstyle and highlighted it.She liked it very much
9:Had the best whacky xmas party by having a real xmas dinner with beloved friends and family.
10:First time at skiing and snowboarding.
Thursday, December 30, 2010
All The Things She Said
All the things she said
All the things she said
Running through my head
Running through my head
Running through my head
(Running through my head)
This is not enough
I'm in serious shit, I feel totally lost
If I'm asking for help it's only because
Being with you has opened my eyes
Could I ever believe such a perfect surprise?
I keep asking myself, wondering how
I keep closing my eyes but I can't block you out
Wanna fly to a place where it's just you and me
Nobody else so we can be free
Nobody else so we can be free
All the things she said
All the things she said
(All the things she said)
This is not enough
Ya Soshla S Uma - Ma!
This is not enough
All the things she said
All the things she said
And I'm all mixed up, feeling cornered and rushed
They say it's my fault but I want her so much
Wanna fly her away where the sun and rain
Come in over my face, wash away all the shame
When they stop and stare - don't worry me
'Cause I'm feeling for her what she's feeling for me
I can try to pretend, I can try to forget
But it's driving me mad, going out of my head
Running through my head
Running through my head
All the things she said
All the things she said
This is not enough
Mother looking at me
Tell me what do you see?
Yes, I've lost my mind
Daddy looking at me
Will I ever be free?
Have I crossed the line?
This is not enough
All the things she said
All the things she said
All the things she said
All the things she said
All the things she said
All the things she said.
All the things she said
Running through my head
Running through my head
Running through my head
(Running through my head)
This is not enough
I'm in serious shit, I feel totally lost
If I'm asking for help it's only because
Being with you has opened my eyes
Could I ever believe such a perfect surprise?
I keep asking myself, wondering how
I keep closing my eyes but I can't block you out
Wanna fly to a place where it's just you and me
Nobody else so we can be free
Nobody else so we can be free
All the things she said
All the things she said
(All the things she said)
This is not enough
Ya Soshla S Uma - Ma!
This is not enough
All the things she said
All the things she said
And I'm all mixed up, feeling cornered and rushed
They say it's my fault but I want her so much
Wanna fly her away where the sun and rain
Come in over my face, wash away all the shame
When they stop and stare - don't worry me
'Cause I'm feeling for her what she's feeling for me
I can try to pretend, I can try to forget
But it's driving me mad, going out of my head
Running through my head
Running through my head
All the things she said
All the things she said
This is not enough
Mother looking at me
Tell me what do you see?
Yes, I've lost my mind
Daddy looking at me
Will I ever be free?
Have I crossed the line?
This is not enough
All the things she said
All the things she said
All the things she said
All the things she said
All the things she said
All the things she said.
The Beautiful Dream
- A dream that this girl stood by this drunkard and kissed him after all the puking he did - He was sad and broken hearted
- Got caught by cops when they were kissing goodnight in the car - First experience ever
- This girl came running down hugging him tight in the night - Got shocked by it
- Giggled by his side when he's sleeping - Never a girl did this except for her
- Went on a runaway holiday trip with him - First time i brought my girl out of the country
- Waited for him to come visit her when she's sick in bed...but did not happen - I was being foolish
- Waited again to see him every night,crying..but he won't come - I cried too when i was forced to not to go.
- The baby - The chance that i had and i will always remember the baby
- The tickling,laughing,rolling on bed - It was fun
- Food hunting - Gotta think everytime where to bring her
- All the lies and alibis - It was and i was untrue
- Heartaches - I had the same too
- The lovely proposal - Had the idea in the shower.Had the courage to do so.My balls grown bigger.My first time proposed to a girl and i will never forget it.It will never be the same again if i ever had the chance to marry someone else.
- The family - Don't know how to tell my parents yet and i hope her mom will be more easy in the future.
- The truth - I wasn't aware of it.I came clean but left unwanted rubbish behind but all in all,i had nothing to hide.
- The broken hopes and trust - Despair...i'm ashamed of myself but i knew i wanted what i wanted after all the bullshit had happened.Starting from the proposal.
I wish,i could make the two of us to lose memory and start this all over again with clear conscious and mind.To be firm in everything that i wanted.To have wonderful relationship bcoz i knew she was the one for me in my life.To make her paint my life colorful.To be the one for her.The man for her.To build a family with her on trust.
It was just afterall wishes.I had my chances.I blew it up.My heart and brain told me she was the one.Wanna know why? coz even she went out with that other guy,i told myself positive things.If it was another woman,i would have blown up like a volcano but i did not.One day i woke up with this feelings that i wanna marry her.Never that i was this courageous to take the step. I was not afraid to take the stand.
Right now,i wish i could hug her right here,right now and make up for every wrong doings i did and be truthful to her forever.I shall.
Till death do us part.I will love you forever till the day i stop breathing.Im sorry Valerian Keng Eileen.I love you.If i could be given ONE LAST CHANCE,i shall make every day a wonderful day for you my dear love.I WILL.
Best I Ever Had
So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had
So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely
Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had
And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right
So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had
So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely
Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had
And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right
So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
You Are The One
You are the best for me dear Eileen...That's why i chose you.Before i proposed to you, i woke up with this anxious feeling to get married to you.This was way before.I was shivering the whole day at that time.I spoke to my dad about it.He was asking me if im sure of my decision and i said YES.I didn't proposed to you merely to tie you down with me,but when the time i proposed to you,i had the courage to do so.I wasn't strong enough before.I wasn't firm.I wanted what i want.I wanted the baby.I wanted so many for us but i didn't had the balls to do it.I knew i was suppose to be firm but Even if im late in making decision,it's better late than never.I fulfilled my own words,even if it's not to you,but to myself.I mark my own words.
You lighted up my life.You made it colorful.I miss our times.It was just the two of us.
You lighted up my life.You made it colorful.I miss our times.It was just the two of us.
Monday, December 27, 2010
I'm Sorry
Dear Eileen Keng,
There are no words I could say how important are you for being in my life, it seems like everything has faded and there is no color in the world for me. I know we have been through very hard times and I accept that it was all was my fault.
Ive grown so deeply in love with you. Day after day, my love for you becomes so overwhelming till I cant handle it when I dont see or talk to you for even one day. You make me feel wonderful. You give me strength when I just cant carry on. You make me smile and laugh a lot and I truly treasure our time.
You are a very patient woman, and I thank you for that. I dont ever want to take advantage of your patience, not ever. I know I over react a lot, and Im sorry.
I really had a sleepless night, moving here and there on my bed and thinking about what happened to us. I least expected it,all I could hear was my heart beating much faster than it ever has. I cursed my stars that night, as my expectation for the night was so much greater, but it ended in a far different way that made my heart choke with tears of losing something I've always fought for.
I made mistakes not trying to understand you, some words did hurt in some way and I guess we got carried away after all those arguments of whether im still not over of my EX'es. I guess this issue has always been the stand block of our relationship getting worked out. I know it's been hard for you trying to understand the real truth. Perhaps I need to give you a chance to find out for yourself whether what Im trying to make you understand is the real truth or not. Trust is very important, especially in a new and an up-coming relationship, and so I have no objection about you finding out the fact about whether I have or not.
Perhaps this is the chance for us to experience the passion in each other. The most important thing is that this is not our first love experience and one thing we must understand is that, in every relationship, whether old or new, we're sure to experience some problems but it's up to us to solve them. These are some of the things that might break our warm friendship and everything we are planning ahead of us. We need to understand each other and try to have the trust that will make this relationship work. I know you are giving up and I still have my hopes up, never giving up on you. Let me tell you this thing that I believe in a real relationship: "It doesn't take beauty to make a relationship but the heart and the mind." I know what Ive seen in you and have a special reason of choosing you. Your perception about guys is really not correct, guys are never the same, maybe some times you might think we think alike but the heart shows all the difference.
You are the most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me. I thought that I would never find a love that is as strong as yours before. But now that we've found each other, Ive changed my mind. You are the person I want to spend the rest of my life with, the person I want to get married to, the person I want to have kids with, and the person whom I want to grow old with.YOU complete me. You make my life so brilliant and I dont know how else to repay you but to love, care and support you more and more.U're the star in my sky - the one and only star.
All I want to think of is you. You are the love of my life. From the bottom of my heart, I love you.
Till death do us part.
There are no words I could say how important are you for being in my life, it seems like everything has faded and there is no color in the world for me. I know we have been through very hard times and I accept that it was all was my fault.
Ive grown so deeply in love with you. Day after day, my love for you becomes so overwhelming till I cant handle it when I dont see or talk to you for even one day. You make me feel wonderful. You give me strength when I just cant carry on. You make me smile and laugh a lot and I truly treasure our time.
You are a very patient woman, and I thank you for that. I dont ever want to take advantage of your patience, not ever. I know I over react a lot, and Im sorry.
I really had a sleepless night, moving here and there on my bed and thinking about what happened to us. I least expected it,all I could hear was my heart beating much faster than it ever has. I cursed my stars that night, as my expectation for the night was so much greater, but it ended in a far different way that made my heart choke with tears of losing something I've always fought for.
I made mistakes not trying to understand you, some words did hurt in some way and I guess we got carried away after all those arguments of whether im still not over of my EX'es. I guess this issue has always been the stand block of our relationship getting worked out. I know it's been hard for you trying to understand the real truth. Perhaps I need to give you a chance to find out for yourself whether what Im trying to make you understand is the real truth or not. Trust is very important, especially in a new and an up-coming relationship, and so I have no objection about you finding out the fact about whether I have or not.
Perhaps this is the chance for us to experience the passion in each other. The most important thing is that this is not our first love experience and one thing we must understand is that, in every relationship, whether old or new, we're sure to experience some problems but it's up to us to solve them. These are some of the things that might break our warm friendship and everything we are planning ahead of us. We need to understand each other and try to have the trust that will make this relationship work. I know you are giving up and I still have my hopes up, never giving up on you. Let me tell you this thing that I believe in a real relationship: "It doesn't take beauty to make a relationship but the heart and the mind." I know what Ive seen in you and have a special reason of choosing you. Your perception about guys is really not correct, guys are never the same, maybe some times you might think we think alike but the heart shows all the difference.
You are the most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me. I thought that I would never find a love that is as strong as yours before. But now that we've found each other, Ive changed my mind. You are the person I want to spend the rest of my life with, the person I want to get married to, the person I want to have kids with, and the person whom I want to grow old with.YOU complete me. You make my life so brilliant and I dont know how else to repay you but to love, care and support you more and more.U're the star in my sky - the one and only star.
All I want to think of is you. You are the love of my life. From the bottom of my heart, I love you.
Till death do us part.
Nothing Gonna Change My Love For You
If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever, oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know,
they’ll take us were we want to go
Hold me now, touch me now
I don’t want to live without you
Nothing’s gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I’ll never ask for more than your love
Nothing’s gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing’s gonna change my love for you
If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead a way for us
Like a guiding star
I’ll be there for you if you should need me
You don’t have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view,
I’ll help you see forever too
Hold me now, touch me now
I don’t want to live without you
Nothing’s gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I’ll never ask for more than your love
Nothing’s gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing’s gonna change my love for you
It's true...If my friend could have waited for 6 years just to be with his fiancee now,i would and i will...I shall..
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever, oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know,
they’ll take us were we want to go
Hold me now, touch me now
I don’t want to live without you
Nothing’s gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I’ll never ask for more than your love
Nothing’s gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing’s gonna change my love for you
If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead a way for us
Like a guiding star
I’ll be there for you if you should need me
You don’t have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view,
I’ll help you see forever too
Hold me now, touch me now
I don’t want to live without you
Nothing’s gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I’ll never ask for more than your love
Nothing’s gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing’s gonna change my love for you
It's true...If my friend could have waited for 6 years just to be with his fiancee now,i would and i will...I shall..
Happy Ending
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.
Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell
This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, no love, no glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.
2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to
my sleep
I can think that we just carried on
This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, no love, no glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.
A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love[repeat]
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.
Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell
This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, no love, no glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.
2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to
my sleep
I can think that we just carried on
This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, no love, no glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.
A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love[repeat]
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
Saturday, December 25, 2010
My Wish
I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
...More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is...
You
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
...More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is...
You
Friday, December 24, 2010
Seribu Bintang
Ingin kupergi jauh darimu
Agar kukenal erti rindu ini
Ingin aku menyelami jiwamu
Agar kukenal dirimu kasih
Ingin aku membenci dirimu
Tapi kebencian tiada padaku
Walau apa yang kau sangkakan
Aku tetap cinta padamu
Telah lama kuhidup melara
Telah kugagal dalam bercinta
Kalau kau sudi menyentuhi hatiku
Aku kan selalu dekat padaku
Agar kukenal erti rindu ini
Ingin aku menyelami jiwamu
Agar kukenal dirimu kasih
Ingin aku membenci dirimu
Tapi kebencian tiada padaku
Walau apa yang kau sangkakan
Aku tetap cinta padamu
Telah lama kuhidup melara
Telah kugagal dalam bercinta
Kalau kau sudi menyentuhi hatiku
Aku kan selalu dekat padaku
She's Gone
She's gone,
Out of my life.
I was wrong,
I'm to blame,
I was so untrue.
I can't live without her love.
In my life
There's just an empty space.
All my dreams are lost,
I'm wasting away.
Forgive me, girl.
Lady, won't you save me?
My heart belongs to you.
Lady, can you forgive me?
For all I've done to you.
Lady, oh, lady.
She's gone,
Out of my life.
Oh, she's gone.
I find it so hard to go on.
I really miss that girl, my love.
Come back into my arms.
I'm so alone,
I'm begging you,
I'm down on my knees.
Forgive me, girl.
Lady, oh, lady.
My heart belongs to you.
Lady, can you forgive me?
For all I've done to you.
Out of my life.
I was wrong,
I'm to blame,
I was so untrue.
I can't live without her love.
In my life
There's just an empty space.
All my dreams are lost,
I'm wasting away.
Forgive me, girl.
Lady, won't you save me?
My heart belongs to you.
Lady, can you forgive me?
For all I've done to you.
Lady, oh, lady.
She's gone,
Out of my life.
Oh, she's gone.
I find it so hard to go on.
I really miss that girl, my love.
Come back into my arms.
I'm so alone,
I'm begging you,
I'm down on my knees.
Forgive me, girl.
Lady, oh, lady.
My heart belongs to you.
Lady, can you forgive me?
For all I've done to you.
Thursday, December 23, 2010
The Once She Said
"Sayang...don't ever cry again when I'm not there by urside,it hurts my heart for not being there for u...I so wanna hug u kiss u n make u feel better.I don't care how many people don't like me..All I want is you to love me from the bottom of ur heart,no lies no bad things...no matter wat ur past is...that's ur past..I had my past too..everyone does..no matter what u did in ur past..it does not apply on me...I'm ur presence..and I wanna be ur future...don't let me down like how u don't want me to let u down...If u were a player once...that was ur past..it's gone..now u have me..u cannot be a player..cuz I don't love a player..n u won't be one anymore..wat ur mom says about u or says about me..it's ok..buy time..she don't know how her son is progressing..she don't know me..start to treat her better and tell her things slowly...she'll see it one day. I'm sorry if my presence bring u trouble..I just haven't and don't wish to give up in this relationship we have..I had to be stubborn n firm to tell myself ur gonna be the one for me..n I want myself to be right..so don't fail me. In this short period of time that we get to know each other and for other's to accept me it's hard..and yes I don't like it. But I buy time..I wanna know that this decision I made is right..whatever u've gone through with Brenda..I don't wanna know already...I know how you feel for her..I love my first bf as much as u loved her..he WAS my everything...he's the only person who really really loves me and take care of me even he's got nothing..and I left him just to please my mum...sometimes I wish one day I could find someone better than him to take care of me..becoz the way he treat me is just unexplainable..but I never ask for anything..from u...becoz u r my presence...and I don't want to ask...like u said..I'll c it myself one day...u are u..my past is my past..ur past is ur past..I don't think about my past until u tell me about ur past.I'm a person who campak my past aside until someone reminds me of it..karma..watever it is..if we'r strong nothing will go wrong...make me the only one.."
It's sad that all that said have gone the other way round....im broken hearted...i know i was wrong...i was to blamed...i was so untrue...but when someone just doesn't believe u anymore,it will be twice harder to gain the trust again and moreover when this is the time im being truthful,she still thinks i am what i am used to be....As i wish i could turn back time,to let her see,that i can love her like no other man can...Nothing can describe my feelings now...it reminded me of that childhood story about a boy who lied about wolf going to eat up his sheeps.He lied one and twice and on the third time,the wolf came true and nobody came to help.
Sayang,how i wish i wasn't that foolish at that time.My past is my past.Your past is your past.We put it aside but it seems you are not.This is the price that i had to pay for being that boy who cheated the villagers.
Till death do us part.I will......
It's sad that all that said have gone the other way round....im broken hearted...i know i was wrong...i was to blamed...i was so untrue...but when someone just doesn't believe u anymore,it will be twice harder to gain the trust again and moreover when this is the time im being truthful,she still thinks i am what i am used to be....As i wish i could turn back time,to let her see,that i can love her like no other man can...Nothing can describe my feelings now...it reminded me of that childhood story about a boy who lied about wolf going to eat up his sheeps.He lied one and twice and on the third time,the wolf came true and nobody came to help.
Sayang,how i wish i wasn't that foolish at that time.My past is my past.Your past is your past.We put it aside but it seems you are not.This is the price that i had to pay for being that boy who cheated the villagers.
Till death do us part.I will......
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Numb
Feeling numb is best i can describe right now on how i'm feeling.So much had happened but i'm still standing strong believing that it will end soon.
Tonite,i learned the most valuable lesson in my life.Never take for granted of love.The pain,the suffering,the numbness,the hurt.Without it,i won't be learning about life that easy.I had to learned it in a hard way.What goes around,comes around.
I'm speechless.Do not know how to say it in words when the things that i did to other people came striking back at me and i don't know what to do because of love,i'm willingly to take it and gulp it though how hurt my heart is to hear it,i will still continue fighting for us.Let the people say i'm silly,stupid,naive but this is me.No question asked.
If saying sorry would solve every problems in this world,i wouldn't have to say it so many times before.
Tonite,i learned the most valuable lesson in my life.Never take for granted of love.The pain,the suffering,the numbness,the hurt.Without it,i won't be learning about life that easy.I had to learned it in a hard way.What goes around,comes around.
I'm speechless.Do not know how to say it in words when the things that i did to other people came striking back at me and i don't know what to do because of love,i'm willingly to take it and gulp it though how hurt my heart is to hear it,i will still continue fighting for us.Let the people say i'm silly,stupid,naive but this is me.No question asked.
If saying sorry would solve every problems in this world,i wouldn't have to say it so many times before.
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Only For You
I can't wait to marry you.
But why?
So then I can show the world that you're mine.
We've gone through the bad,
and experienced the worst.
Now we're enjoying the good,
that comes in return.
In the past, we made mistakes.
I think that's fair to say.
But the beauty of it all,
is that we're still together today.
No matter what we've been through,
no matter what will come,
neither of us can see a day,
where this love wont be enough.
And instead of writing a song,
which was what I was trying to do,
I decided to write a poem,
to dedicate to you.
I know that it's not perfect,
but you've never asked for much.
I just hope that it's the right amount,
to show how much you are loved.
So Sweetie, I love you.
We both know that much is true,
but I hope you'll one day realize,
that I also know
you're my soul mate too.
But why?
So then I can show the world that you're mine.
We've gone through the bad,
and experienced the worst.
Now we're enjoying the good,
that comes in return.
In the past, we made mistakes.
I think that's fair to say.
But the beauty of it all,
is that we're still together today.
No matter what we've been through,
no matter what will come,
neither of us can see a day,
where this love wont be enough.
And instead of writing a song,
which was what I was trying to do,
I decided to write a poem,
to dedicate to you.
I know that it's not perfect,
but you've never asked for much.
I just hope that it's the right amount,
to show how much you are loved.
So Sweetie, I love you.
We both know that much is true,
but I hope you'll one day realize,
that I also know
you're my soul mate too.
I'm Ready
Im ready to go, walk hand in hand, together, forever, and always please do, nothing can stop me the whole world could end, and i'd be just fine just holding your hand.
I pray im not sleeping cause if this is just a dream, i dont want to wake up, who knows what it would be.
I have reached a perfection in my imperfect life, by finding in you the most perfect wife.
I pray i can please you i promise to be true, never will i harm you, always care for you.
Vows are so deep and could go on so long, so i tell you this dear, i promise to be strong.
Whatever you need or what ever you like, anytime of the day all thru the night, i devote all to you,forever i do!
Silence is golden and please understand, the past couple months have been hell in a hand.
The reality of this all is you knew what to do, and angels all over all of them too, i was so lost and i thought you gave up on me too, then the fear of being without you withered away.
And whatever happens i know this i can say, ive never known love and then have it go away, broken hearted for a while then kiss you and smile.
And now here we are walking for miles.
I pray im not sleeping cause if this is just a dream, i dont want to wake up, who knows what it would be.
I have reached a perfection in my imperfect life, by finding in you the most perfect wife.
I pray i can please you i promise to be true, never will i harm you, always care for you.
Vows are so deep and could go on so long, so i tell you this dear, i promise to be strong.
Whatever you need or what ever you like, anytime of the day all thru the night, i devote all to you,forever i do!
Silence is golden and please understand, the past couple months have been hell in a hand.
The reality of this all is you knew what to do, and angels all over all of them too, i was so lost and i thought you gave up on me too, then the fear of being without you withered away.
And whatever happens i know this i can say, ive never known love and then have it go away, broken hearted for a while then kiss you and smile.
And now here we are walking for miles.
Will you marry me?
No im not a coward but i am still the king
I lived thru this life not to have a fist fight in my Auntys lanai,
I do and hold control
I would not be able to live with myself
If i hit this man,he would die
I do not hit people,they break too easily
Do not feel unsafe,please Eileen
I am ready to be with you
I am ready to rest and make love
I will never be complete,unless you come home to me
Wedding?
How about a party
We are eternal
We are married
Please come home and rest on my chest and have a burito and me
This time we dont have to ever leave
No one will take you away
No one will get in the way
All i want is you
Help me talk the royal ways with addicts liars and thieves
In order to rule,one must understand how crazy as i get
You dont want to know how the other side is
You and i my love and a world of followers
We are loved by god,by children,by parents
We love each other
I want you so bad that i almost forgot how hot you get
and how green your aching and need
I just want to pound and pass out
and wake and kiss and live with you in bliss
Look around out there
i was there today
i want to live
i want to feel
As good as it gets with only you
I will not share.....
I got the ring
are you ready now?
I lived thru this life not to have a fist fight in my Auntys lanai,
I do and hold control
I would not be able to live with myself
If i hit this man,he would die
I do not hit people,they break too easily
Do not feel unsafe,please Eileen
I am ready to be with you
I am ready to rest and make love
I will never be complete,unless you come home to me
Wedding?
How about a party
We are eternal
We are married
Please come home and rest on my chest and have a burito and me
This time we dont have to ever leave
No one will take you away
No one will get in the way
All i want is you
Help me talk the royal ways with addicts liars and thieves
In order to rule,one must understand how crazy as i get
You dont want to know how the other side is
You and i my love and a world of followers
We are loved by god,by children,by parents
We love each other
I want you so bad that i almost forgot how hot you get
and how green your aching and need
I just want to pound and pass out
and wake and kiss and live with you in bliss
Look around out there
i was there today
i want to live
i want to feel
As good as it gets with only you
I will not share.....
I got the ring
are you ready now?
When i said i do
God brought us together and life tore us apart.
I tried to walk away, but you remained here in my heart.
Can't fight it anymore. Looks like you're here to stay.
Every single minute that you've been away from me,
I have felt like something's missing. You're not where you should be.
It's time to drop your guard and set aside your pride.
Give it all you've got. I belong right by your side.
Well, there's no denying it now. We belong together.
Let's forgive and forget and start all over again.
This time don't forget that I'm also your best friend.
No one should come between us. That's how close we should be.
No one thought we'd make it, but we found forever, you and me.
I tried to walk away, but you remained here in my heart.
Can't fight it anymore. Looks like you're here to stay.
Every single minute that you've been away from me,
I have felt like something's missing. You're not where you should be.
It's time to drop your guard and set aside your pride.
Give it all you've got. I belong right by your side.
Well, there's no denying it now. We belong together.
Let's forgive and forget and start all over again.
This time don't forget that I'm also your best friend.
No one should come between us. That's how close we should be.
No one thought we'd make it, but we found forever, you and me.
Miracle
This coming weekend,i'm coming back to Kuala Lumpur with one mission.I don't want to regret for my whole life for not doing it.Making whatever it takes to make miracles happen.Amin...God bless.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
The Special Someone
Aha! Her name is Valerian Keng. Met her a while ago.It was a beer buffet outing where i really get to talk to her.Else i will be the shy shy cat or perhaps i was just not interested but this girl attracted me to her in some ways. She's one mysterious girl ever i met.She's unique. Different than others. She's the dark child. Heh..ok..lil too much... *don't marah sayang*
So yeah, it has been 6 months i knew her.Well, people might say that it's too short period of time,but i would say love know no boundaries.Love is blind.Love is magical.Love is a gift of life.
She likes to make magical moments with me. She's spontaneous. Unlike me,gotta think before i speak. No girls would ever love me like she do. She loves me from head to toe.She would even sleep on the floor with me.
I'm glad to have her in my life but somehow when people take things for granted,that's exactly what happened to me.I'm patching up back things with her. To appreciate her more,to care more for her,to love her more than myself,to put her before me and yes,guys out there,better do something before the things that you love gets taken away.Appreciate your partner.
She taught me to love imperfect person perfectly. She brought me to her lolliland and dreams.It was magical.
The name is Nez
So as the title says....The name is Nezyrin.Of a mixed parentage. Malay-Chinese to be exact.
what to writeeeeee laaaaa...oh i love house music and a lot of Hip-hop and rap kinda songs.
*currently listening to Tiesto - Feel It*
Back in school days, people used to call me ah chong.fark man! the name lekat with me till i finished my primary. Till now there is this someone still remember me by that name.Thanks to Faliq Fahmie! Well at least i am not forgotten. hehehe...
During primary, i was the naughtiest kid in class.Even till now few of my primary school mates remembers that i was that notty kid in school.Nezyrin=Naughty.Dang!
Grew up in Keramat area for like 20 years or so.I bet some people don't even know where it is.Bah!
Ok,what else? Hurmmm...let's go to secondary then.
what to writeeeeee laaaaa...oh i love house music and a lot of Hip-hop and rap kinda songs.
*currently listening to Tiesto - Feel It*
Back in school days, people used to call me ah chong.fark man! the name lekat with me till i finished my primary. Till now there is this someone still remember me by that name.Thanks to Faliq Fahmie! Well at least i am not forgotten. hehehe...
During primary, i was the naughtiest kid in class.Even till now few of my primary school mates remembers that i was that notty kid in school.Nezyrin=Naughty.Dang!
Grew up in Keramat area for like 20 years or so.I bet some people don't even know where it is.Bah!
Ok,what else? Hurmmm...let's go to secondary then.
Newbie or Noob...whatever..
So here it is...im new to blog...first time..inspired by reading few of my gf's blog valerian keng and adik's blog apple tan that made me wanting to blog all these while but never happen till now. So what do i want to blog about here...hmm,there's a lot...don't know where to start from.
I think i shall update one by one things about me,myself and i...but for now,ciaooooo....
*thinking which to start first*
I think i shall update one by one things about me,myself and i...but for now,ciaooooo....
*thinking which to start first*
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