I'm Sorry

Dear Eileen Keng,


There are no words I could say how important are you for being in my life, it seems like everything has faded and there is no color in the world for me. I know we have been through very hard times and I accept that it was all was my fault.

Ive grown so deeply in love with you. Day after day, my love for you becomes so overwhelming till I cant handle it when I dont see or talk to you for even one day. You make me feel wonderful. You give me strength when I just cant carry on. You make me smile and laugh a lot and I truly treasure our time.

You are a very patient woman, and I thank you for that. I dont ever want to take advantage of your patience, not ever. I know I over react a lot, and Im sorry.

I really had a sleepless night, moving here and there on my bed and thinking about what happened to us. I least expected it,all I could hear was my heart beating much faster than it ever has. I cursed my stars that night, as my expectation for the night was so much greater, but it ended in a far different way that made my heart choke with tears of losing something I've always fought for.

I made mistakes not trying to understand you, some words did hurt in some way and I guess we got carried away after all those arguments of whether im still not over of my EX'es. I guess this issue has always been the stand block of our relationship getting worked out. I know it's been hard for you trying to understand the real truth. Perhaps I need to give you a chance to find out for yourself whether what Im trying to make you understand is the real truth or not. Trust is very important, especially in a new and an up-coming relationship, and so I have no objection about you finding out the fact about whether I have or not.

Perhaps this is the chance for us to experience the passion in each other. The most important thing is that this is not our first love experience and one thing we must understand is that, in every relationship, whether old or new, we're sure to experience some problems but it's up to us to solve them. These are some of the things that might break our warm friendship and everything we are planning ahead of us. We need to understand each other and try to have the trust that will make this relationship work. I know you are giving up and I still have my hopes up, never giving up on you. Let me tell you this thing that I believe in a real relationship: "It doesn't take beauty to make a relationship but the heart and the mind." I know what Ive seen in you and have a special reason of choosing you. Your perception about guys is really not correct, guys are never the same, maybe some times you might think we think alike but the heart shows all the difference.

You are the most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me. I thought that I would never find a love that is as strong as yours before. But now that we've found each other, Ive changed my mind. You are the person I want to spend the rest of my life with, the person I want to get married to, the person I want to have kids with, and the person whom I want to grow old with.YOU complete me. You make my life so brilliant and I dont know how else to repay you but to love, care and support you more and more.U're the star in my sky - the one and only star.

All I want to think of is you. You are the love of my life. From the bottom of my heart, I love you.
Till death do us part.