"Sayang...don't ever cry again when I'm not there by urside,it hurts my heart for not being there for u...I so wanna hug u kiss u n make u feel better.I don't care how many people don't like me..All I want is you to love me from the bottom of ur heart,no lies no bad things...no matter wat ur past is...that's ur past..I had my past too..everyone does..no matter what u did in ur past..it does not apply on me...I'm ur presence..and I wanna be ur future...don't let me down like how u don't want me to let u down...If u were a player once...that was ur past..it's gone..now u have me..u cannot be a player..cuz I don't love a player..n u won't be one anymore..wat ur mom says about u or says about me..it's ok..buy time..she don't know how her son is progressing..she don't know me..start to treat her better and tell her things slowly...she'll see it one day. I'm sorry if my presence bring u trouble..I just haven't and don't wish to give up in this relationship we have..I had to be stubborn n firm to tell myself ur gonna be the one for me..n I want myself to be right..so don't fail me. In this short period of time that we get to know each other and for other's to accept me it's hard..and yes I don't like it. But I buy time..I wanna know that this decision I made is right..whatever u've gone through with Brenda..I don't wanna know already...I know how you feel for her..I love my first bf as much as u loved her..he WAS my everything...he's the only person who really really loves me and take care of me even he's got nothing..and I left him just to please my mum...sometimes I wish one day I could find someone better than him to take care of me..becoz the way he treat me is just unexplainable..but I never ask for anything..from u...becoz u r my presence...and I don't want to ask...like u said..I'll c it myself one day...u are u..my past is my past..ur past is ur past..I don't think about my past until u tell me about ur past.I'm a person who campak my past aside until someone reminds me of it..karma..watever it is..if we'r strong nothing will go wrong...make me the only one.."
It's sad that all that said have gone the other way round....im broken hearted...i know i was wrong...i was to blamed...i was so untrue...but when someone just doesn't believe u anymore,it will be twice harder to gain the trust again and moreover when this is the time im being truthful,she still thinks i am what i am used to be....As i wish i could turn back time,to let her see,that i can love her like no other man can...Nothing can describe my feelings now...it reminded me of that childhood story about a boy who lied about wolf going to eat up his sheeps.He lied one and twice and on the third time,the wolf came true and nobody came to help.
Sayang,how i wish i wasn't that foolish at that time.My past is my past.Your past is your past.We put it aside but it seems you are not.This is the price that i had to pay for being that boy who cheated the villagers.
Till death do us part.I will......
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