The Beautiful Dream

• A dream that this girl stood by this drunkard and kissed him after all the puking he did - He was sad and broken hearted
  
• Got caught by cops when they were kissing goodnight in the car - First experience ever
  
• This girl came running down hugging him tight in the night - Got shocked by it
  
• Giggled by his side when he's sleeping - Never a girl did this except for her
  
• Went on a runaway holiday trip with him - First time i brought my girl out of the country
  
• Waited for him to come visit her when she's sick in bed...but did not happen - I was being foolish
  
• Waited again to see him every night,crying..but he won't come - I cried too when i was forced to not to go.
  
• The baby - The chance that i had and i will always remember the baby
  
• The tickling,laughing,rolling on bed - It was fun
  
• Food hunting - Gotta think everytime where to bring her
  
• All the lies and alibis - It was and i was untrue
  
• Heartaches - I had the same too
  
• The lovely proposal - Had the idea in the shower.Had the courage to do so.My balls grown bigger.My first time proposed to a girl and i will never forget it.It will never be the same again if i ever had the chance to marry someone else.
  
• The family - Don't know how to tell my parents yet and i hope her mom will be more easy in the future.
  
• The truth - I wasn't aware of it.I came clean but left unwanted rubbish behind but all in all,i had nothing to hide.
  
• The broken hopes and trust - Despair...i'm ashamed of myself but i knew i wanted what i wanted after all the bullshit had happened.Starting from the proposal.

I wish,i could make the two of us to lose memory and start this all over again with clear conscious and mind.To be firm in everything that i wanted.To have wonderful relationship bcoz i knew she was the one for me in my life.To make her paint my life colorful.To be the one for her.The man for her.To build a family with her on trust.


It was just afterall wishes.I had my chances.I blew it up.My heart and brain told me she was the one.Wanna know why? coz even she went out with that other guy,i told myself positive things.If it was another woman,i would have blown up like a volcano but i did not.One day i woke up with this feelings that i wanna marry her.Never that i was this courageous to take the step. I was not afraid to take the stand.

Right now,i wish i could hug her right here,right now and make up for every wrong doings i did and be truthful to her forever.I shall.

Till death do us part.I will love you forever till the day i stop breathing.Im sorry Valerian Keng Eileen.I love you.If i could be given ONE LAST CHANCE,i shall make every day a wonderful day for you my dear love.I WILL.