Funny

Dear Blog, it has been sometime the last i update you. So here goes. So much funny things happened lately. I met this girl whom my love now but the funny thing is that, every time i think back how i treated Eileen, it is the other way round now. I'm exactly in Eileen's position now. Treating so good and nice to my current gf. Reminds me a lot of how Eileen said she wants a gentleman, financially stable, caring and loving. Because of my past experience with Eileen, now i appreciate so much of women, being grateful of what i have even sometimes my current gf would made me feel suspicious or hurt me. In any relationship, there will always be one sided. When one cares, the other take things for granted. Guess i'm in the took for granted shoe. I took Eileen for granted and now it is my own turn. That's how karma works no doubt but that never even make me back down or giving up. Instead it drives me forward. To be better man and shows her that i'm someone worth. Someone who can be a husband and dad. Took down my ego and pride. I'm so very happy that i don't even get mad or scold my current gf. I managed to hold back and control my temper and think positively. That's the key. I got all lovey dovey with her but she is just like how i used to be, doesn't like it. She even asked me not to care for her too much because she's scared that we will ended up like her ex'es though her ex'es treated her bad but not me. How funny that she said im a gentleman. Even her whole family is backing me up even when things go wrong with both of us. Responsibilities is the keyword. Responsibilities creates love. Responsibilities creates the security in a woman. Nowadays, whenever i made mistakes, i will quickly apologize and sometimes when even it is not my fault, i still apologize. Why? Because i vale the relationship more than my own ego. Let alone people who will tell me stupid saying that im losing myself for the one i love and care about. I know in every person will have a limit but let me tell you my limit is even higher up since the last i was with Eileen. It is ten folds now. Other funny things, im mixing around with a group of Ipohrian. They know Eileen because one of their friend is her ex bf. How funny it is that i still talk about Eileen with this group. Not bad stuff but good things about her. These people talked bad about her when she was with Bryan and it is funny that how i backed her up in front of these guys even though she is no longer with me. I kept asking myself why i did that but i just got one answer, because to me she is not bad after all and she must have got her own reasons behind all those happened. I kept pushing myself forward. To love her more and more everyday and that's what i've been doing. Care for her so much until she told me i suffocate her. Sigh...now when i think back, how i am like this towards Eileen. Things would have been different. I prolly would have gotten married to her and have kids of our own. Told ya this is all funny. Funny how life works. One time we are in the loosing side and one time we are in the winning side.