Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Tears

Is what left in me....Memories....the hardest thing for me to forget....it can't be vanished just like that....Love....i learned it the hard way...I don't think i would be able to love someone anymore.Too much hurts by my own mistakes...After the proposal,i really wanted to settle down..No more lies,no more tears...All i wanted to do is just be truthful to my love one...but like the story of the young boy and his sheeps with the villagers,no one ever gonna trust me anymore.I failed you guys,i failed myself and i failed her.

My first time of proposing to a lady.I was nervous yet excited.I thought i could be well better off.Like a wise man said "Marriage is our last best chance to grow up" but it lasted for a good 10 days.I enjoyed every moment with her as my fiancee.I even addressed her as my fiancee to everyone that i speak to even to strangers.I didn't mean to hide her before.I felt very much comfortable to tell everyone that she's my fiancee.My wife to be..but in the end,it didn't happen.I'm shattered....All i know,i wouldn't give my heart to anyone as it's only meant for her.It will take much stronger lady to steal my heart away from her but as of now,i wouldn't be ready for the next relationship with other women.I will walk away from them i swear.I will tell them that i'm not ready.It's better be true than not.

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