We Belong Together

I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you, so
I should have held on tight
I never shoulda let you go
I didn't know nothing
I was stupid, I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself
Cause I didn't know you
Cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt

The feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don't hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here, cause baby
(We belong together)

[Chorus]
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together

Who else am I gon' lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together

I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Saying to me
"If you think you're lonely now"
Wait a minute
This is too deep (too deep)
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
I only think of you
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart

I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things, crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
It ain't even half of what
I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life, baby

[Chorus]

Who else am I gon' lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together, baby

[Chorus]

Who am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh baby, baby
We belong together

You Complete Me

I love you more than words could ever express.You changed my life.I love every little thing about you. I love your cute smile,your magical eyes.I love your gentle touch, and I love the warmth I feel when i’m by your side.You always understand my shortcomings.You made me become a better person.I can't stop thinking about you when we are apart.I need you by my side.You complete me.You mean the world to me.You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. You are the one i've always wished for.I never thought that I would ever meet someone as special as you.I love each and every moment I share with you.It's you Keng Eileen.

All I Want For Christmas Is You

You complete me.

Xmas v.1

I miss you

U were suppose to give us the gift of love,
And i thanked God for sending you down to us from up above.

Every time i look up,i see ur shining and glowed like stars in the sky,
u were and will always be my little angel in my eyes.

I will always hold u in my heart forever.
How i wished that u would understand...

My life is definitely not the same without u here,
But i know u are in a better place, and i also know you will always be near.

Please be our guardian angel and help us get through this tough time,
and find some way to let us know that u are and will be fine.
I love you from the bottom of my heart,
This is not the end,this is just the start.

u are in my heart and memories always....

Faith v.2

Anything is possible if u believe.Put ur faith in what u know to be true and the good things will come to u.

Believe in the love i have 4 u and we will get through the tough times.U love as though there is no tomorrow only today, and ur love for us will show u the way.

Remain strong and juz believe and faith will open the doors to happiness. Look deep in ur heart, and u will realize that everything is as it should be.

Your eyes, they are powerful,they healed my pain.
Your kisses became my oxygen.
Your arms were full of warmth.
Your understanding towards me, taught me to be a better person.
Your faith, made me believe in us.
Your love makes me feel complete.

Let's....

Faith

With all these feelings inside u
Im sure its often hard to know
What u should be doing
And where ur life will go

I know that u are scared right now
I know it will b hard
But know that i will stick by u
Im not going very far

I know that u are not ready
To fully have me in your life
I accept and support u
Even if i can’t be in ur life

My love for u will last
With each challenge that we’ll face
Everything will come to pass
In its own time and place

God knows whats best for us
Dont let bad things get you down
Life will soon bring you joy
So smile and please dont frown

I have the faith that we’ll be ok
I have the strength to make it thought
I will continue to just stand by
Juz remember i love u

I love u Keng Eileen

My Queen

U are the essence of pure beauty in my eyes presence.U are a beautiful landscape for my eyes to gaze upon.Notice how i always stare into you? I'm too busy gazing at the stars in your eyes.

U are my constellation,the beauty behind my nights...i see your true beauty, that every other knights would ever realize and waiting to give you a ride on their mount but i'm lucky to have you sailing away in our own world.

U are as beautiful as the clouds shattered across the sky..Deny me not my queen the beauteous face...but grant me this wish to hold you tight in my arms...whilst your hand in mine i seek to embrace and i unworthy to beg for a kiss...

The past is never remembered the way it was actually lived, a memory can be spiced or diced.

It only interprets what the teller can explain at that moment.I am for who i am but more to believe when you see.I speak from the heart.Spilling out my soul from my veins.Allowing your mind to capture the image.The purest love to be offered.The softest touch to be given.The most passionate kiss to receive.The snuggest hug to feel but i don't get all that anymore.No more snuggest hugs,no more passionate kiss,even to touch you are avoiding.My Queen,i open my being to you...giving you the essence of me.Bring you into me as one,sharing my soul with yours is what i seek.

My queen,my angel,my life;u are that which completes me,the thrill that is of my abstract adventure,the beauty of your existence in my life...

U are my queen,my angel,my everything.....do love me back...bcoz i love u so...

I'm Sorry

We are falling apart, the spark was gone, and the light was fading.I have no reason to hate you.I just want to make you happy but i wasn't doing the right thing coz im loving you the wrong way.Neglecting you and appreciating you wasn't enough.I dont know what was going through my head.I know if i treat you right,i will get ten folds of what im giving from you.You tried everything, for me to stay away but dear,i love you more coz of those things you do.Im still hoping that someday you would bring back the Room 36 memories.Now, you get angrier with me asking me to set you free but darling i would do everything just to have you coz without you I feel lost with even now you are no close to me ever since your mom moved back to KL.

I've learned that words can soothe the heart but can also tear two lovers apart and i ruined things way beyond compare.Our love was so special, so happy and strong.So special that there is no perfect love song.So special that i believe you would go against your mom just to be with me.There's no excuse for the way i acted.It was not me,i was so unattractive.My love for you will never let you go.Ive told you once,ive told you twice, i'll tell you over and over again, you have my soul.I beg for your forgiveness for me to come back to you and be your real man.Through all of this Ive learned so much and to never take for granted something as simple as your touch.

If i may say the least for making your heart bleed.Im sorry my love.....I know you have doubt in me,i know for a fact.sorry for the things ive said to you selfishly.I dont want to let you go.you are my everything and I cant live without you.you are my life,my baby.I know i was wrong and now im crying asking you forgiveness,Im sorry,please forgive me.

Sperm Bank Heist - A Dirty Joke

A guy walks into a sperm donor bank wearing a ski mask and holding a gun. He goes up to the nurse and demands her to open the sperm bank vault. She says "But sir, its just a sperm bank!", "I don't care, open it now!!!" he replies. So she opens the door to the vault and inside are all the sperm samples. The guy says "Take one of those sperm samples and drink it!", she looks at him "BUT, they are sperm samples???" , "DO IT!". So the nurse sucks it back. "That one there, drink that one as well.", so the nurse drinks that one as well. Finally after 4 samples the man takes off his ski mask and says, "See honey - its not that hard."

You

How do i explain the way i feel
Would u understand?
My feelings for u
Would u believe
How i crave your touch
The softness of your lips
The time u take
When your eyes meeting me
The hunger for u is so deep
The ocean is shallow
The fire that burns within me
Hell couldnt tame
So to say i want u
Is an understatement
My heart aches bcoz of u

The Answer

I'm starting to see how i'm hurting you and each day i do adds up slowly.Everytime i hurt you it feels like i'm caught up in a strong current again.My emotions were played with at times.Those feelings were unanimously discarded.Who's getting left behind? You are not the only one caught in between truth and lies.A sweet sound ends in fleeting pleasure.Then starts over again.Morphing into something new and intoxicating.Into a clear bright tomorrow.Hope is swallowed up as time goes by.Our memory's ashes will be scattered and forgotten. So what can i count on? The warmth i feel in your body's The Answer.

Another Chance

I love you and that is true, no one know how much i long for you. Each day i dream that you are near just a glance away...

Another chance that's all i ask, to hold you close and hope for the moment to last.

I'd give my all to see and touch your face, memories each angle to have something to rekindle.

Your my dream come true and i'll give my life for you, i'll protect you make sure that no one can ever hurt you.

I'll ask all the angels to guide you, i'll always love you and no one will take your place.

Looking up to the sky, for each time a star sparkles i'll know its you smiling from above.

I miss you Keng Eileen so bad...

The Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

--Reinhold Niebuhr

I'm So

I'm so into her,
I'm so obsessed of her,
I'm so in love with her,
I'm so being blue over her,
I'm so in desire to want her,

My heart, however still remained yours.

Breathe

not again
my girl for the fourth time
let me make it very clear to you
your very dear to me
and honor of me
share to you
me not unfair to you
who would u want
for real you make me know and
i will be there for you
but me know im not a fear to you
stand up like a man and not be there cuz i care for you
long time tellin you
no other girl can compare to you
woman if you leave me now,
im gonna shed a lotta tears for you
say you want to breathe
im still not im exhalin'
say you want to leave cuz this relationship failin'
aint nobody say that it would be smooth sailin'
girl i wana know why your bailin'

Today

Oh well,here i go again....

Today,i personally asked my mom to cook steam fish...It was a specific one...Steam red talapia...like how Eileen and me had it before for quite few times...So yeah she cooked it..I was very happy feasting on the whole fish by myself for lunch...

After lunch,i kinda watched American Pie String Academy half way thru until i decided to head down to the city heart; KLCC for some beer...Reached there sharp 5pm and started with beer..went to sit by the bar and there's this mat saleh couple from Holland and USA...I figured i don't wanna be lonely so i started to have conversation with them.The guy is from Florida,USA and the girl is from Rotterdam,Netherlands..

What made me sad was that they noticed about the ring that im wearing on my right hand finger...Told them my engagement been called off..They feel for me..Told them that i cheated on my fiancee and the couple told me how they cheated on their ex before too.Sigh...People do mistakes in their life...

Anyway,happily chatted with them until the 7th bottle and we figured to go somewhere else and i suggested to go Reggae Bar in Chinatown...Oh,before that,i befriended with two guys next to us..Malay guys...chatted a while and told them that we were going to reggae bar.

So,off we went to reggae bar.

There,the two malay guys came along like after an hour.Glad to see them.At least i don't have to be alone because i don't really want to bother with the mat saleh couple.

What happened was that one of the malay guy cried to the girl.I wondered why,so i asked the other malay guy and he told me that his friend cried due to his love one cheated on him and getting married in February.He was so down.I felt for him.

I broke tears out of nowhere.He didn't cheat like how i did and he got that kind of treatment.I feel for him.REALLY! I consoled him and actually i was telling myself the same too.Yeah you can tell i'm a cry baby,but a man is still a human being.We do have feelings just like woman,just that we don't show it that often.

I don't know what to do after.Vladana saw me with sad face.She came and consoled me.She's a nice girl.Glen,you better take care of her.That's what i always emphasized to him.Don't be like me.To realized what i've lost after she was gone from my life.

So around 1am,Glen started to get tipsy.I figured it was the best time to send them back to the hotel and we did.While driving back,i figured to drop by the hospital to give a visit to Aszam.Apparently he was admitted for food poisoning.

By 2.30qm,i drove back.Decided to have maggi soup.Been craving for it for weeks.I'm satisfied.


How coincidence to see someone else who is heart broken too.I feel for you bro!

By the way,we exchanged our phone numbers.We might catch up again at the same place somewhere next week.Obviously i will be alone again.

That's all folks.Gonna continue back my movie.Goodnight ;)

Just The Way You Are Malay Remix

I'm Lonely

Baby
I don't want you to go
I love you so
More than you will ever know
Lately
I only made you cry
But don't you say good bye
Won't you give me one more try
Cause I'm lonely
I feel so lonely
I need your body by my side
To get me through there endless nights
I'm lonely
I feel so lonely
There's no one in this world for me but you

I love you Keng Eileen...

I Want To Know What Love Is

I Wish

I wish i never had met you,then there would be no need to impress you,no need to want you,no need for loving you,no need for crying over you,no need for heartbreaks,no need for pain for both of us,no need for tears,no need for forgotten promises,no need for rejected hugs,no need to crying myself to sleep,no need for acting like you care,no need for everything i've done to make you feel like absolutely nothing but most of all i love you too much that i'm not willing to let you go..

I hate myself..

Just Want You To Know

Just want you to know,that since I lost you, I lost myself...No I can't fake it, there's no one else..I love you Valerian Keng Eileen

Grow Old With You

My only wish :(

PINCER

Today,i received news from my friend.It was about the project that im handling in Ipoh.It was in 2 major tabloids and i would say that im darn proud of my hardwork.Nothing can describe how im feeling now.Job well done Nezyrin! im proud of u mother fucker!

http://www.bharian.com.my/bharian/articles/PiNCERberoperasibulandepan/Article/index_html

http://peraktoday.com/wp/?p=9926

http://www.utusan.com.my/utusan/info.asp?y=2011&dt=0107&pub=Utusan_Malaysia&sec=Utara&pg=wu_01.htm

Memories

Love Suffers

To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering, one must not love. But then, one suffers from not loving. Therefore, to love is to suffer; not to love is to suffer; to suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy, then, is to suffer, but suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be happy, one must love or love to suffer or suffer from too much happiness.

Moments

There are moments when i'm driving and she woke up next to me and whispered "I love you yang".There goes a small little pause and a smile from me.

Tears

Is what left in me....Memories....the hardest thing for me to forget....it can't be vanished just like that....Love....i learned it the hard way...I don't think i would be able to love someone anymore.Too much hurts by my own mistakes...After the proposal,i really wanted to settle down..No more lies,no more tears...All i wanted to do is just be truthful to my love one...but like the story of the young boy and his sheeps with the villagers,no one ever gonna trust me anymore.I failed you guys,i failed myself and i failed her.

My first time of proposing to a lady.I was nervous yet excited.I thought i could be well better off.Like a wise man said "Marriage is our last best chance to grow up" but it lasted for a good 10 days.I enjoyed every moment with her as my fiancee.I even addressed her as my fiancee to everyone that i speak to even to strangers.I didn't mean to hide her before.I felt very much comfortable to tell everyone that she's my fiancee.My wife to be..but in the end,it didn't happen.I'm shattered....All i know,i wouldn't give my heart to anyone as it's only meant for her.It will take much stronger lady to steal my heart away from her but as of now,i wouldn't be ready for the next relationship with other women.I will walk away from them i swear.I will tell them that i'm not ready.It's better be true than not.

Careless Whisper

Kept repeating this song...got stucked in my head...

Bukan Cinta Biasa

The One Natural Candid Picture of all time

how loving we get....i will always remember this for the rest of my life...

Still Loving You

Time, it needs time
To win back your love again.
I will be there, I will be there.

Love, only love
Can bring back your love someday.
I will be there, I will be there.

Fight, babe, I'll fight
To win back your love again.
I will be there, I will be there.

Love, only love
Can break down the walls someday.
I will be there, I will be there.

If we'd go again
All the way from the start,
I would try to change
The things that killed our love.

Your pride has build a wall, so strong
That I can't get through.
Is there really no chance
To start once again?
I'm loving you.

Try, baby try
To trust in my love again.
I will be there, I will be there.

Love, your love
Just shouldn't be thrown away.
I will be there, I will be there.

If we'd go again
All the way from the start,
I would try to change
The things that killed our love.

Your pride has build a wall, so strong
That I can't get through.
Is there really no chance
To start once again?

If we'd go again
All the way from the start,
I would try to change
The things that killed our love.

Yes I've hurt your pride, and I know
What you've been through.
You should give me a chance
This can't be the end.

I'm still loving you.
I'm still loving you,
I need your love.
I'm still loving you.
Still loving you, baby...




I beg you to give me a chance to start once again all the way from the start....

My lost little one

As i sat here and reminiscing of my lost lil one
I think of what u would have been like,
Would u have looked like me?
Would u have fit the family?
I think abt u and wonder my darling,
I wish i could have met you, if only held u once,
I know u had to be taken away,
to be at home where i too will be one day.
Ur life was nvr meant to be.
U were given a life, a soul, a future name
But now things will nvr be the same.
U were mine to give life to
Though only for a while
Things had changed...
I will nvr see your smile.
Yet my love for u
Will nvr disappear
Though ur voice,ur laugh,
I will nvr get to hear.
U will always be my baby
Though i've never seen ur face.
Not a thing in this world
Can ever take your place.
I know my lost lil one that you are gone,
gone but not 4ever.
In my heart i know that one day we will be there together,
And i will nvr let you go,
No one will hurt u, my lost lil one,
I fought for u, please believe me i did
I was too little too late to decide,
I wanted you from the start but i was unsure abt ur mom's decision
I fought to save u, but she was just too strong,
I want u to know i love u, and to know i am sorry,
for making u go, the way u did,
U will never be forgotten
When I realized I'd nvr hold u,
The feeling i had was numbing.
My angel baby is who u are.
My angel baby you'll always be.
Ur loving memory will live in my heart
So u will always be right here with me.
I wish i could do it again, i would have been gone,
gone away with you,
I would do anything for u, u are my child,
my shining star, my life
I know my words cant change the past,
but i can change the future,
My lost lil one,
it will never happen to your brothers or sisters,
I will protect them to the death,
I will not let them go too,
I had to lose you, that was hard enough to do.
You are my dearest one and believe me i'll remember you,
I love you my kid, my little baby,
I miss you and ur mommy...Daddy loves you kid...

Listen to your heart

I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.
You've built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.

Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what it seems,
the feeling of belonging to your dreams.

And there are voices
that want to be heard.
So much to mention
but you can't find the words.
The scent of magic,
the beauty that's been
when love was wilder than the wind.

It must have been love

Lay a whisper on my pillow
Leave the winter on the ground
I wake up lonely, is there a silence
In the bedroom and all around

Touch me now, I close my eyes
And dream away...

It must have been love, but it's over now
It must have been good, but I lost it somehow
It must have been love, but it's over now
From the moment we touched till the time had run out

Make believing we're together
That I'm sheltered by your heart
But in and outside I turn to water
Like a teardrop in your palm

And it's a hard winter's day
I dream away...

It must have been love, but it's over now
It was all that I wanted, now I'm living without
It must have been love, but it's over now
It's where the water flows, it's where the wind blows

It must have been love, but it's over now
It must have been good, but I lost it somehow
It must have been love, but it's over now
From the moment we touched till the time had run out